This Friday I'm starting at my new office, new line in work, ciao textile industry and fashion and hi-de-hi medical equipment!!!

Just as a final farewell to all those bosses whom didn't choose ME at my interviews, specially those that didn't even check my c.v., here comes a beutiful link from

As to those who were specially nice during interviews, I have already contacted them personally with "Whack-an-applicant" -Nooooo, just kidding, they got my piece of news and Xmas wishes.

Thanks specially to Meritxell, from Matching Place, if you ever read this. I did thank you personally AND got your reply :)

Must dash! Have two and a half days left at the present office and must leave everyting quite sorted out.


As they say in Spanish, Año nuevo, Vida nueva!!

Yesssssir!!! Finally!!!!

I am starting at my new job on January 2nd!!!
Great vibes, hope it's as good as it seems: there's no backing out now!!!
Shall say more later on...


Hope I get this job!!

Been to my third interview of the week, and this job seems almost mine! Great connexion with the boss, we talked about all sort of things besides the interview itself and he said I'd be one of the 2 or 3 people he'll present as finalists to the general manager... and that he had had the feeling, before meeting me and just by my c.v. and letter, that I would be one of the "winning bets"...

New timetable that would be great for my son & me, once adjusted to change in lifestyle...


Poor Eva's in trouble too!

Eva, my friend who is living on her own with her teenage daughter -Twice her size and four times her strenght, plus a tomboy and tough girl, while Eva has always been Happy-go-lucky- is in deep shit, too.

Last Friday we made a special dinner for us two, and drank a bottle of whine against the world while helping her out on her University tasks, and smoothing out rows between her and her daughter.

A month ago, I wouldn't have guessed the next time I had a weekend to myself, without my son, I would be cooking prawns & sardines for Eva instead of going out 'till early hours with Joan. Plus, she's my friend through Joan, so she's in a difficult position rigth now, on my side as a woman who has gone through similar shit during her life as I have, but of course, Joan is her friend and has been for ages.

Last night we had a few telephone conversations. I have to keep reminding her that her daughter's attitude is typical in the Teens, and her phoning Dad, who lives elsewhere and has no relationship with them, nor helps out moneywise of course, is a usual way of testing her power.

I keep telling her this, so that she'll remind me in a few years, when my son Hugo is in his teens and serching for help against my rules in his absent dad.

5 days' silence!

I'm managing not to call Joan, not to text message him... the worst part is every lunchbreak, when he used to phone to see how my morning had been. Can hardly eat any lunch, as my stomach cramps thinking I'll have no more happy calls from him... at least for a looooong while.

Gooood, how I miss him!!!!

Nate has been around, welcome back to comfort me and glad to do so, too. He's really nice, but I have to go through my pain from losing Joan before getting more involved in old flames... though it does help to have someone loving, who cares, and who sits by your side kissing you gently as you try to sleep.

He is, as had been, a great guy. I love him, missed him during my relationship with Joan as he tried to keep out of the way, and am glad to see him and talk on the phone now and then. But I am not in love with him, and though he has been very good to me, I never really was. I love him but am not in that insane state you go into when you really need to hear someone's breath, hear their voice over the phone for the n-th time, watch someone in their sleep... It's a shame, but true.


No news...bad news(2).

Lost Joan, officially now.

We talked it over two weeks ago, I'm one of the best people he's ever met, great fun, great lover, great person... but love him too much, he's not up to my level... so, as he feels I'm making his life too easy, and he's making mine too hard, we'd better split.

I offered to keep on seeing each other as friends, maybe as lovers too, in a while, but he's scared of making me suffer even more like that, 'cause I still love him

At first he seemed more relaxed and normal with me, after our talk, and for a couple of days he was himself again: fun, friendly... though instead of being on the phone three to five times a day it was only once, or every other day.

But since, he's been back to his disappearing acts, and cold towards me when I went to get some of my stuff from his place... once he was quiet, but touching when we got to talk a bit, said he was making progress with his main problems -personality, drugs...- and admitted he was being weird with me, but "also feeling weird and sick with himself"... Next time I turn up for some more stuff he's almost acting as if I were an acquaintance!

Told him on Saturday to call me sometime, he said he'd call that evening... I knew he wouldn't. Shall make myself not call him 'till he gets in touch, whenever that may be.


What is going on??

Bad gets worse.

Loosing Joan by moments, can't get in touch with him and he is promising to phone, then disappears for three days and replies to no text messages or phone calls... Then turns up again, changing subject whenever I try to get to the point, and seeming more or less normal 'till he disappears from my life again...

As I have no time for myself these days, it doesn't help much: I'm not going to turn up at his place to confront him with my son tagging along, and have had no weekends to myself for a month now.

It really hurts. And he is the guy who keeps listening to all his friends' stories about nasty boyfriends and says they are simply childish and don't know how to handle a relationship? And now he just seems to be hiding from me, without a word about whatever is really going on in his mind???

Can hardly concentrate on work, let alone give a good impression when interviewed for new positions...


No news is... bad news!

No good news, anyway: Both my favourite possible jobs, those in which I was on the final run for the position, have been given to someone else.

O.K. -Fair play, sending e-mails thanking their interest anyway & blah, blah... but there is nothing else ineresting in sight.

My father's finding it hard to deal with all the pain and breathing problems during his recovery, so I'm going to see him every weekend, no time for myself in a loooong time I guess...

Boyfriend seems to be drifting away, as he has never been too good at helping when things get bad -He's excellent at feeling guilty about it, though! So, two problems: No help or support when necessary, AND psychotherapy sessions of guilt and "I shouldn't have let you be so close to me, when I started falling in love with you I should have moved away instead of making you love me, all I do is make you suffer..." So it makes me have to keep my emotions to myself if I want to relax at least when I'm with him.

Really down right now... Not sure wether it's the best moment to confront him, though, as I might be taking him too badly because of everything else...

In fact, I must admit he was the only person I could rely on when my son's father went mad and broke into my flat, wrecking everything, and my son and I lost the flat -our home. He was excelent then, helped me out in everything, though we had only been together for a couple of months -The most normal reaction would have been What the fuck is going on here? This woman may be great for a while, but she has a kid, little money, and an ex who is out of his mind, a big, black moron who has just kicked the front door open and now knows my face!? But, insead of leaving me, HE WAS THERE.

Shit, I miss Joan being by my side!


Dad's recovering

Sorry for not writing for a week:
Been to a few second interviews, to some new ones too, and dad was operated on Tuesday.
At first it seemed he wasn't coming on well, it was heart surgery and when he woke up from the anesthetic he was thinking he was in a dungeon, he was there to die, etc, and was not helping his body to start working... but in a few days he is much better, most of the drainage tubes taken off, and less of the other tubes too.
As to my current job, the boy at the storeroom asked me to make him a cv, so he must be thinking of leaving too, and another girl in the office is leaving by surprise on Tuesday!!
She hadn't said officially she was going to leave, but some of us knew she'd been looking around, and her aunt has got her a position in the National Health -entering data, etc. Sooooo... the girl who started working here on Wednesday, to take over my position, has been sent to her table, to learn everything from her now, and hope to find someone for me soon.
By the way, the new girl in my office is also here because of influences, she knew our lawyer... Why don't I have connections anywhere????
Anyway, got loads of work to catch up with, as I took a day off for my dad's operation, and my work on the last two days has been s.l.o.w. because every step I usually do was repeated, written down and checked -not her fault, but it takes ages to make a single invoice like this!!! -Let alone explain the whole process from invoicing, chasing payments, checking cheques are good, and sending to insurance company those that are badly overdue... just to start replying to all their request then!
Shall get back as soon as I have a moment.


Hi, sweet pie!!!

Hello, Velena!!! Got your email -miss you soooooo much!

As you'll see, you can keep up with my stuff now.

Hello to anyone in Denmark with a fashion business: my friend is sick of internships and needs a job!!! She's a good designer, and has been through most of the satges in the fashion industry -yeah, she's good at fixing hanging boxes, too! Not just a pretty face!!!

They are reading this!!!

Oh my god!! They are reading it!!!???

Just got reply from the so-called Vina, in Middle East -with the missing info I'd been requesting!!!

Vina?? VINA??? HELLO????


Thanks for the info, anyway!

-or is it just coincidence?

Why such a hurry, and then no news for days???

I hate people who try to abuse you into doing something -i.e., pay off a credit note for some returned goods, at work: They email, fax and phone you threee or four times a day from the other side of the world, and when you finally get your boss to agree, then there is something missing -IBAN number? VAT number? ACCOUNT NUMBER???- and, as you´d gladly email something like "As soon as you give me the fucking account number, I shall pay you the 50 euro you have been complaining about" (it spells out slightly different, but they get the tone) -they suddenly dissappear! No further news in ten days!!!??? -HELLO, ARE YOU READING THIS, MS. VINA???

Oooohhhh, the joys of Customer Service...

Link into my favourites!

I've just added some links: One is to El Jueves, a very famous Spanish weekly, known as a) The Main Souce of Information for Students and Youngsters, and b) The Favourite Toilet Read -it seems that, in many a questionnaire, most people take it to the restroom to read.

I'll admit I used to read it hidden in English Text Books... while controling my students, sitting exams!!!!. Yes, I used to teach English, as 95% of the Brits living in Barcelona and without enough money to set up a bar!!!

I changed my carreer three years ago, and am about to do so again -as explained during this week.

Another link is to a site which is really amazing: It locates nursery pictures out of classified files in many hospitals -are you in it? My sister is!!


Yesterday's interview had to be followed up by a Feedback Form, which I couldn't get to from my work computer as it was a .doc, and we do not work with Office, but with old-fashioned Lotus system. So, after visiting a customer of ours whom owed us money since May -all this after my regular work hours- I got to my boyfriend's place, left my son sleeping on the couch, went to a cyberpoint to see to the mail and just caught them closing.

I explained -on my knees- that it was vital for a job it was after, and managed to sneak in and do it while he was closing... just to get him peek over my shoulder all the time and offer to send the attachment himself once I'd completed the form. O.k., o.k.! as the title says, but this morning, when I got to check my email together with my work emails, TACHANN TACHANN... I've got a message saying they could not read my attachment, it was in a strange format, and could I please re-send it in Word!!!!!

Finally solved by appologizing and asking them to copy & paste the form onto the email, so that I could visualize it.



Been to the n-th interview... But, at least, lately I'm finding more interesting jobs to apply for!

Keeping my hopes up for the 2nd round on the "Marketing Assistant" I'm having next week, as there's only two more people to beat (up?!-ha!) for this one. The interview today was o.k., but not specially promising -anyway, one never knows!

God! My boss' nephews are driving us all nuts!!! They're stupid, unable to do anything at all, and are here JUST TO CONTROL WHAT EVERYONE IS DOING!! But then, they act as if they had established the firm themselves... I got my boss to mark the prices on all the discount items on sale for the next month and a half, as I am invoicing the stuff and Nephew 2 - Fester Addams, to us- was charging from 12 euro extra to double the price for last year's clothes!!!

Good job that now, as I've already made it official that I'm leaving, Mini Barbie Pink Pants is no longer playing tricks on me, and actually is ALMOST NICE TO ME!!!



Hello, friends and all!!! Starting right now, I shall be a new cibernetic moaner... Laughing at all the weird stuff going on around me, and complaining just enough to unwind...

Shall be at it soon again!